When I told my mother that I'm gay,
she excused herself & went to pee for 4 hours.
When I introduced her to my boyfriend,
she couldn't meet his gaze. That night,
she had a nightmare where I was drowning

in a filth of sin. Such is the logic of dreams.
Everything is allowed. Like in motherhood.
Some spiders let their newborns feast
on them for sustenance. Some fishes mistake
their babies for prey & eat them alive.