do not care if you're actually a nihilist. 
would love to sit outside Cold Storage and 
sweat in the moon. 
miss you. like i spelled with chocolates. 
dangle our legs on the joyride, catch it on film. wish you.
wish you didn't bring out the worst in me.
just sit for a while in the car. no need to change now.
will try to pretend. forget. talk about who we'll marry. 
what to wear? promise me 
you'll come. so glad for you. so happy. 
tell me. i think the wind smells different in every city. 
still can't punt. can't go home. 
miss you knowing. sooner or later i'll remember how. 
keep the library stairs. am so much thinner now.
watched you wear the cufflinks again. dream.
always thought you'd forgive me eventually. 
never really knew anything.
it's been a while. said i'd stop but i didn't. 
see? my poems didn't send you to hell. 
know you didn't believe i'd be back. didn't believe 
i'd say yes. i'm so in love with him 
it hurts. would like you to meet. someday, 
miss you. will never read you, 

                                                        but i know exactly
                                                            how you break/